Recently, Pinkbee told me in all honesty, about how much she misses being attached. There was no stigma attached to that admission, it was just an acknowledgment of that fact. Truth be told, I actually do agree with her and I say so with no sense of stigma or dependency.
It might sound needy and clingy but I do enjoy being in a relationship more than I like being single. It’s not to say that I think being single is sad and lonely, in fact, I think it shows great confidence for a person to be comfortable and happy without being in a relationship. Because really, some of us would rather be trapped in loveless or even abusive relationships because they cannot imagine themselves without a partner.
From the age of 17 till now, I have never been without a boyfriend for less than a year. It might sound as if I have had a lot of relationships but the total sum of my love experiences can actually be counted with just one hand. In the end, it took an incident last year for me to realise how I could actually be happy by myself, I didn’t need someone else to give me a sense of completion.
But I like sharing a healthy relationship with someone I love and who loves me back, more than I value my singlehood as a badge of honour, independence, whatever. I don’t think I am a sad sod for wanting to be part of something, or that this means I would compromise my identity as an individual.
I like being with someone who would willingly, though grudgingly in a good-natured way, watch April Snow with me. I like being with someone who shares my interest in the arts and likes going for Arts Fest performances too. I like being with someone who doesn’t mind waiting while I try on pretty clothes. I like being with someone who picks me up when I fall into doubt. I like getting a nice bear hug. I like laughing out loud when he makes inane comments like how handsome he is.
And most importantly, I like being with someone who does not begrudge my apology which came a day later, who made me tear when he returned the apology with the kind of understanding that took me by surprise, even after almost six years of being together.
God Only Knows by The Beach Boys
One Week by Barenaked Ladies
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Good to hear that the relationship is still burning bright.