The past few days have been really, really rough but I am riding it out. Please don’t tell me to think positive, to appreciate what I have in life – I know all that. Sometimes, when you are free falling, you just got to hit rock bottom before you are able to claw your way back up into the fresh air.
I’m fine. I will be fine.
In the meantime, there are little milestones that I am looking forward to. For starters, there’s the The Script concert tonight at Fort Canning Park with Hucks, whom I haven’t seen in almost a year!
You can bet your bottom dollar that I’ll be playing these songs on repeat mode today until Hucksy picks me up. I’m so excited, I can’t wait!
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you’re missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you’ll come back here to the place that we’d meet
And you’ll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I’m not moving, I’m not moving
What am I supposed to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I supposed to say
When I’m all choked up and you’re okay
You won’t find faith or hope down a telescope
You won’t find heart and soul in the stars
You can break everything down to the chemicals
But you can’t explain a love like ours
I had goosebumps while watching this. On repeat. Like, five times in a row. Cos I really, really, REALLY love Muse and I really, really, REALLY love U2 and this is one song that I really, really, REALLY love.
And then they followed that up with Plug In Baby. Heaven.
But nothing can beat this: U2 live in Boston, 2001. I want to kill that girl, hell, I want to BE THAT GIRL. Damnit. Just watch and swoon.
This may sound trite but Imogen Heap’s Hide and Seek is surely one of the songs that I love more and more over time. It’s beautifully written, so simple and yet it reaches so deep into your heart. Anyone who has ever endured the pain of a broken heart will surely feel the song.
She may not be the perfect singer, especially live, but she is definitely one of the best performers that I have had the pleasure of catching. She’s so genuine and funny and amazingly talented. I could not catch my breath, she took all of us on a train ride that started with a flurry and ended with a warm fuzzy feeling. We clapped, cheered, shouted, cried, laughed and smiled. There was pain and humour and hope and joy.
It was a wondrous journey of emotions and musical soundscape.
And then there’s Wait It Out. How true the lyrics are.
Everybody says time heals everything
But what of the wretched hollow
The endless in-between
Are we just going to wait it out?
The Killers. February 13-21. Sydney/Perth/Melbourne.
Failing which, we could just head to Big Day Out and catch Muse, Lily Allen, Groove Armada and The Temper Trap all at one gig.
Oh my gawd! Watching Brandon Flowers and Matt Bellamy live would make me a very happy girl indeed. Hopefully, Muse performing in Indoor Stadium would be as epic as their concert at Wembley. That was sheer perfection.
Now, if only I can find a way to catch Gary Lightbody live too.
It’s been almost three years since I’ve stopped singing and to be perfectly honest, I don’t miss it too much, barring those moments when I hear great choral or acappella pieces and think, damn, I wish I could sing that.
Recently, these moments have been triggered by Glee, the funny TV series that has been ruling my iPhone, together with Gossip Girl and Grey’s Anatomy. And I just realized that these shows begin with the letter ‘G’. But that is not the point.
The point is, Glee is so wonderfully warm and funny. Set in a fictitious high school in a small American town, it follows the trials and tribulations of a singing group and its enthusiastic teacher-in-charge. The song and dance routines are very Broadway and immensely infectious. It reminds me of the time when we were singing fun ’60s songs back in SCGS choir days. We loved what we were singing and we had lots of fun doing campy choreography and cheesy moves. That was before the days of singing strange avant garde songs that did nothing to warm my heart. Who doesn’t love a pop song or musical?
And the characters’ need to fit in and to do something special in their lives hit the right spot. I mean, before I joined VJC Choir and Victoria Chorale, I was merely mediocre. I was good, perhaps above average, in most things that I did (except for Maths and Physics – I sucked at those!) but I was never the best. I was a good writer but not great. I did well at English Literature but would never have gone further than A’Levels with it. It wasn’t until I joined the choir and started winning competitions and awards that I felt I was truly good at something. Singing was probably one of the only things in my life that I put my heart and soul into.
I leave you now with a song that has been ringing in my head. Heck, I even bought the track off iTunes store. Coincidentally, we were at Courts Tampines shopping around a couple of weeks back when I heard this song, sung by Journey, and was humming it the entire day. Tonight, when I get home, I am going to dig out all the Swingle Singers and Rockapella tunes from my external hard disk.
(Much thanks go to Lucian for sharing this with me!)