It’s probably uncool of me to say it but damn, it’s been really fun putting the wedding together.
While my colleagues show sophisticated nonchalance towards their nuptials, in contrast, I am full of exuberance and excitement. Heck, I can’t even pretend to be chill about it even if I want to. I have been enjoying every single minute of this journey, from finding a location that we both feel it’s “us” to going ahead to buying the wedding dress nine months ahead of time because I love tulle, every step has been a mix of anxiety and unbridled joy. Anxiety, because the thought of frittering away our hard-earned savings for one night’s enjoyment over an empty house that needs to be furnished is always at the back of my mind. Joy, because it brings me closer and closer to the start of a new life with my favourite guy.
I know there have been a lot of wedding-related posts these days. But this journey of ours has been a long time coming and after more than eight years, you can see why we’re viewing this with so much enthusiasm and anticipation.
Many wise people have said that the wedding is not as significant as the marriage. But the truth is, when you have been waiting all those years to spend a lifetime with The One, you want the first day to be as as “us” as possible. And that’s what makes it exciting – knowing that the little details here and there represent our personalities and journey.
Funny how things turn out in life, isn’t it? As I was telling Popartgirl, if we hadn’t gone through the highly acrimonious split almost five years ago, we may not be getting married today. It was painful and truly heart-breaking (on my part, at least) but hey, we became all the better for it.
Although we will be married for the rest of our lives, forever still doesn’t feel long enough, and it couldn’t come quicker enough.
(PS: Oh the dress? Got it from Swirl. It’s from Yu and it’s going to be my evening dress for the wedding. It wasn’t what I had in mind for the wedding but once I had set my eyes on it, strangely enough, I couldn’t get it off my head. It’s not a “traditional” evening dress but I think I have learned enough to know that this is a wedding about us and not how it should be.)