Two of Us, Wedding March

Hold on to patience

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After Hong Kong (and Harry Potter, one might add, with a tear or two), my life seems to changed in the smallest of ways.

I’d like to think that the boyfriend and I are not terribly rah-rah and we have, more or less, settled back into our normal lives after the whole proposal thing. But there are little differences in how we look at each other and view the world. We observe the people around us and vow not to make the same mistakes as they did in their marriages, we are more mindful of how we spend our hard-earned money and sometimes, I catch him rubbing my ring finger when we are hand in hand, as if wondering where the ring had gone.

There are so many reasons as to why I love him but I think the most beautiful reason is not for us to know but for the unseen hands that brought us together to savour and relish.

……….
How long is the road
How long is the ride
How long is the darkness till we get to the light
Go easy on me
Cause you already know
No matter the distance I’ll stay on the road to your heart

Lately, I have been putting Corrinne May‘s debut album, “Fly Away” on repeat mode.

I love her sophomore effort, I really do, but I think “Fly Away” tugs at my heartstrings more so than “Safe in a Crazy World“. Perhaps it’s because “Fly Away” had kept me company during the darkest moments of my life, when I would lie in bed in the silence of the night while her warm and comforting voice took me back to those days, those moments, those memories.

Four years later, things have changed and I am no longer that girl with shards of glass caught in her heart. I no longer cry in my bed for what I could not prevent. But her songs remain as beautiful as they were in my memories and there are others around me who are struggling to pick up the remnants of their lives and move on again, like I did.

Walk away, I want to tell them, you’re worth more than he’ll ever realize/Baby, walk away/Spare yourself this pain/Can’t you see that he’s not worth it?

Some of us get over pain quicker than others but no matter what, we have to come to the realization that even as we mourn, the world continues revolving and life does not stop for us. Taking steps forward may mean uncertain future but it also signifies courage and strength. We may falter but with each step we take, we become stronger.

And if you should ever fall, I will be there to hold your hand and pull you up again.

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